One week feels like one month.

I am here but my soul is there.

I left my head and heart behind.

Everything's here seem like a drag.

I feel so miserable at times.

Never thought that i would want to stay.

All i wanna do now is run away.

Leave.

Torn Apart

My heart is torn apart.

8000 km in between.

Leaving is an option.

Staying seems so invisible.

I hope i made through.

I really do.

The World Make me Sick

A Single Man

I watched "A Single Man" last night, at 4am in the morning. When i was feeling all lonely and vulnerable. Perhaps it was the timing, perhaps it was the movie. I woke up this morning, still feeling little overwhelmed.

It is rather subtle movie, you really have to look into deeper connotation to understand what it really means. It is beyond sad and depressing. A single man who is devastated because his love was killed. Death is not an option.

Past doesn't matter, Present is a drag, and Death is the future.

i feel like i having update my blog for ages!

feeling very uninspired

i dont want to write just another blog post

i want a meaningful piece of work that actually convey something more than explaining my mundane life

come to think of that

my life is certainly NOT mundane in the past 2 months

you could never imagine how time and people can have some much impact in your life

i certainly experienced that

ups and downs

highs and lows

i dont want what other word to describe other than CRAZY

but i reckon this is life, and when you got through everything and stand back on your feet, you look back on everything you have done, is all a myth.

you could never figure out what life really is.

because it is the way it is.

In a world of uncertainties, do we all know what are we really looking for?

Love?

Money?

Trust?

If you attempt to challenge, but failed, should we non-stop trying?

Theoretically, we should. Because that's how we achieve success,

but in reality, how much strength do we have to challenge ourselves?

How many time you got to get your heart broken before you finally find that someone that will never let you down?

We question ourselves.

What is the motivation or strength that keeps us believe in love, wanting to fall in love again and again?

Is faith like a moisturizer that we should apply to ourselves everyday?

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I was just saying i dont complain much about life in the last post.

HERE I AM!!!

i cant believe i almost got caught Plagiarizing in my essay!!!

im a 3rd year final semester student!!!

OMFG

now i have to re-do my referencing,

i doubt that i pass that assignment

im not pissed

but more like disappointed

and afraid,

how am i gonna do my next assignment!

uhhh i wish i didnt have to do this unit :(

i dont hate my lecturer,

i think she is just doing her part and being fussy.

i cant afford to fail any unit!!!

im in finaly semester for god sake!!!

I realize if i dont complain about my life i have nothing to blog about

hahaha

how pathetic

hmmmm

heaps of events happened recently

some bad, but mostly good

hate dealing with money

fcking hate my ex housemates

love my current housemates

uni is getting busy

drinking too much

stoning too much

ok, thats what happened in a nutshell

love,

ian

Hey people, i am starting to write.

Here are couple of ideas i am going through

not sure which to develop.

1) Coming out, in the closet and heteromitivity.

2) Men fake orgasm too.

3) Facebook & Youth

4) New media & Pop culture - eg. i have a mac infront of me, but i still go on my BB to update my twitter

5) Life as a student in Melbourne

Please let me know which interests you the most, Thanks!

I cant believe i have deserted my blog for so long

only 3 posts ever since i got back

well is not that i have nothing to blog about

in fact i have heaps of stories

but dunno where to start

just leave it

share some lomo pictures :)

A Day at Mentone Beach

Saturday Afternoon's gig

My new look! Ok, just the shirt.

Messing with my new scaft! lol

Heaps of work coming.

I am going nuts

still havent decided if i want to move to Clayton or stay in the city in the living room.

My biggest dilemma in my life!

ahhhh LIFE!

It looks like a lot of my favorite boys and girls are born in March!

I would like to dedicate this post to all the March Babies :)

Happy Birthday boys and girls!

To Shirley, hope that your career goes well! Rock the Runway Babe!

To Kaze, i am struggling to come out with words, i just want you to be happy and be Kaze! xoxo

To Lilin, i hope love find you as soon as possible! stay true to yourself :)

To Dior, happy that you found someone and settled down, stay positive! Hope all is good.

With love,

Ian

hello, to the occasional readers.

sorry for lack of posting.

have been busy settling down besides of low inspiration to write.

everytime i write a post now,

i feel like i am doing a journalism assignment

and i have to make sure it is good.

well, at least satisfactory.

anywayz life in Melbourne continues,

the good, the bad and the ugly.

u name it, i got it.

the usual roller coaster cycle comes round again.

but i manage not to bitch about it?

i think i have grown more mature

or problly just because i dun have time

or problly i go on twitter more often than blog?

hahaha who cares

errmmm lets see

i dun hate my life now, but i am not enjoy it thoroughly

but ya, if you are wondering, i still party all the time.

well hope everyone is doing good,

just wanna be positive for once!

cheerio!

"Writing a story is like having sex, you need a good foreplay as a intro, slowly build up the climax then relax the tension with a surprise or two."

-Ian Loh, 2010

Leaving on a jet plane

To Melbourne : 7 days

22nd Bday Thank You Post & CNY

Oops i thought i wrote a thank you post but i think the busy-ness of celebration caught me off a little.

Been so busy celebrating bday and CNY.

feeling very festive for once.

Well, to be frank i had a little weird birthday on the day itself.

i didnt do anything fancy.

jz dinner with family at nite, with a little surprise celebration made possible by my hometown frens!

but all good :)

just easy and cosy.

i wanna thank everyone that dropped their wishes, appreciate it very much :)

especially to Kaze, Su, Boon, Zhing for the present! I love it! never in my life i asked for something, and i actually get it! Thanx kaze!

To my frens in pontian, woan, chee, duan and chuan. Thanx for the little celebration that made my birthday nite! Thank you hl and hui ting for the bottle of wine ;)

Thanx Richard for the warmth hospitality in KL and the present!

Whilst just yesterday i got another present frm princess lilin! thanx lotz ;)

Thank you everyone who posted on facebook, twitter, texts message and calls!

heart you guys always!

im leaving back to melbourne in a couple days of time

hope everything turns out good

til then Happy Chinese New Year!

11 X 2 = 22

On the last day as a 21 years old,

i look back at my life, and think : "Hey, ian, you life has been blessed!"

As corny as it sounds

i am glad i made it so far.

still not dead or handicapped. haha.

okay back to the topic.

to be honest, i feel 22 more than 21

dont ask me why, i dunno, it just happened.

it is like you officially passed your youth days,

officially no longer young young, but adult kinda thing.

it just hit me.

you are not growing up anymore but growing older.

think at the bright side, at least, i am still growing.

last year has been an awesome year for me.

things have been great, life, family, friends, studies......all good

at least there are things i am still looking forward to now.

my birthday wish?

hmmmm simple

to experience a better year!!!

love,

ian

Back from Singapore.
Heaps of fun
Dead Beat
No pictures

Love, Ian
11 X 2 = 22